First Night

First Night

First Night The house is quiet. All three of you, oblivious, sleep soundly in your beds. You trust me to keep you safe. Happy. All by myself. The house is dark. Only one light remains in the kitchen. A white candle lit. You must assume I am normal. Steady Mommy. I dig for courage. The…

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garden-girls

Garden Girls

It’s Saturday in mid-November and snow is coming. We just bought our cross-country ski equipment at the annual ski swap, raked up the last of the leaves, and unhinged the planters to store in our garden shed alongside pots, tarps, shovels, rakes and wheelbarrow. I circle in and out of the house, setting another load…

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I don’t need a man, I want a warrior

I don’t need a man, I want a warrior

Give me space to dance, to move my body and lead with my Heart. No need to fix me, or show me the way, I am a resourceful woman. I don’t need a man, I want a warrior. Hold me, closer. Love me, intimately. See me, as the perfect being that I am. I am…

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Tribute to Survival

You left me with a freakin’ teddy bear. Yes, you exited and now I am laying in this bed with a teddy bear in my hand. I know you wanted to stay and raise these 2 amazing boys with me. I totally get it and yet you had to go. And I am still here.…

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Dear-Future-Self

Dear Future Self

Dear Future Self The children have grown up, and for all the worry and fear that you felt when they were small, they’ve turned out far better than you even hoped. In fact, you might now worry that perhaps, when they were young, you worried too much. Perhaps the years slipped by too quickly in…

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Blackberry-Season

Blackberry Season

The distance between my front door and my sister’s back door is less than two-tenths of a mile. My three children and I have covered every inch of that narrow road for what seems like a thousand little trips. As I walk quietly along that familiar route in my sleepy seaside town this afternoon, I…

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